Holly Golightly and I --- " the mean reds"

If theres one character from any movie of anytime I can relate to it would be Holly Golightly from the 1961 film Breakfast at Tiffany's. Holly Golightly [played by Audrey Hepburn] is a flighty and mysteriously charming young woman living a strange and questionable life.

At one point in the film Holly has this conversation with her neighbor Paul Varjak...

Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
Holly Golightly: No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?
Paul Varjak: Sure.
Holly Golightly: Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away. The quietness and the proud look of it; nothing very bad could happen to you there. If I could find a real-life place that'd make me feel like Tiffany's, then - then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name!


I can relate to this quote/conversation more than I've ever been able to relate to anything in my life. For one-- I know exactly what she means by the "mean reds" and being afraid but for no reason. Theres been days where I've woken up scared, just scared that something awful might happen and I feel the need to run. Its such an awful feeling.
and for two-- having that place to run to, which happens to be Tiffany's for Ms. Golightly, is the best solution to the "mean reds". Its that one place you can go and just forget the world, it's the kind of place that you only bring people you really trust and care about, because you trust them enough not to ruin it, and care about them enough to share it with them.
Theres this one place I go when I'm at school and I'm breaking down, scared, trying to run. Its the one place in the city I can walk without getting too scared to get lost. I can just lay there and look at the stars. It's one of the few places in the city where you can actually see the stars and appreciate them, thats what makes it so good. It's my Tiffanys, it's my escape. I feel like everyone has one of those places, it could be a broken bridge with graffitti all over it, or it could be a certain bench in a certain park. Everyone has one place they can always feel at home and run to during the "mean reds", if Holly Golightly taught me anything, that would be it.