The City is a Cold Lonely Place

You know what I miss about home? I miss being able to walk down the street without someone doing so much as even looking at me. I miss people not checking me out, and being disgusted by me rather than attracted to me. I miss being a nobody rather than an object of lust. I've been taken advantage of before, I have only told one person about these TWO instances where it has happened. And last night, what happened to me was the last straw. I had too close of an encounter to feel even the slightest bit safe. I feel violated with out having been touched by another person. Someone had the nerve to drug my drink -- roofie / date rape drug if you prefer. Thats about when I decided I want to go home. I hate home, I hate the suburbs, the slow lane if you please. I hate it, I like thrills, but that about ruined it for me. I feel so taken advantage of. Oh and what is even better is when I went to safety and security about the matter and one of the officers responses were "I bet you learned your lesson then". That came off to me as "Oh you did it to yourself." That is so not the attitude you need to have in that type of feild, you are not there to judge the victim, you are there to provide every bit of support you can offer. This is yet another reason I am so motivated to stay in Criminal Justice for my major. I don't want people to have to turn to dickheads like this when in times of need. This morning I broke down in tears because of how dissapointed I am in our society. Have we really given up on emotional connections to the point where you will drug someone for sex. Why not just get a fucking prostitute. I garuntee it will get you in less trouble. And you know whats worse. I was informed that when my drugged body was being tredged back to the dorms by my best friend guys were still yelling things and hitting on me. Its disgusting how people take advantage of others in their moments of weakness.You know you're in a lonely place, when peoples deepest connections are literally & physically inside you. The city is a cold and lonely place. I just want to find people who will make me feel less alone, and more connected. I'm a little lost for words because I'm so disgusted, so I apologize if this comes off as vague or hard to comprehend. I wrote this more to get things off my chest than for your reading pleasure... Sorry.