RANT.

FUCKING UGH. This is most likely going to sound super repetitive, and it's probably going to be a totaly bitch session. You most likely wont even enjoy reading this, I'm writing this for myself. I am SO sick of being treated like a peice of ass. One of the worst things you can do to a person, is treat them like they are nothing but an object of lust. Its degrading, it's the worst feeling in the entire world. To know that people are so shallow as to look past what they are making the other person emotionally feel in order to "get off" breaks my fucking heart. It's even worse when someone tries to tell you they are interested in you more than sexually and you want to believe them but all they seem to focus their attention on is your sex life. Like honestly, I wish I was a virgin and I wish I could have stayed that way until marraige. Guys do not respect me and I am so sick of it. It honestly makes me feel worthless. I've worked so hard to build up some bit of self esteem, and this is not helping at all. Call me weak for letting something like this bring me down, but how would you feel. I feel used. I feel worthless. I feel like an object of lust. I do not feel human. I'm so angry right now I can't even explain it. The one thing I've always been proud of is my personality, and who I am inside. And the fact that no one else seems to appreciate it or see it really hurts me. This is the first time in a while that I can truly say I'm sincerely hurt. And not by one event or action that has hurt me, by a lifetime of things done to me that I just cant take anymore. Is it really so hard to see someone for who they are?


By the way if you are offended by this, that honestly sucks for you. Because I mean every word and it is how I really feel. If you'd like to confront me and prove me wrong, be my guest because I'm ready for a good fight, I have plenty of ammo.