Optimism & Wisdom

When browsing the web today, I stumbled across a quote by Charles Dickens. It read "A loving heart is the truest wisdom." This provoked alot of stirring within my head. It made me think of a few different people that I know. I know someone who loves with everything they have, they love life, the people in their life, they love culture, they love everything in moderation... and they are one of the most wise, and smart people I know. The other person who came into my mind. This person does not love as much as they should, they criticize, they pick apart, they judge, they find the flaws in everything rather than embrace things and love the good in things, in life, in their friends/family, in our culture, our world. Although this person is not unintelligent, they are not wise. I think that this is what Mr. Dickens meant when he said those words. If you love, appreciate, and see the good in things, you let yourself be wiser and more knowledgeable about how things really are. But if you refuse to love and appreciate, you're closing your eyes to the world, and robbing yourself of wisdom, clarity, and knowledge. I guess I could go as far as thinking that this applies to optimism and pessimism. If you are optimistic you open your eyes to possibilities, these possibilities leading to opportunities, these opportunities leaving room for improvement, this improvement building onto your wisdom. But if you are pessimistic, you close your eyes to these possibilities, blocking off all paths of the roads you could take in life, leaving you with nothing but ignorance. So what I'm getting at is, maybe we should start trying to find the good in every situation, not only to ease our minds, and keep light in the situations, but to better ourselves. I guess this is just one of those life lessons I needed to come across. It's long overdue but better later than never.

Remembering an Absence.

Hello, hello
my dear friend
How strange it is
that we meet again
Its as if we've already lived this time
Deja Vu, rembembering a dream divine.
Connected by fate
Reunited not soon, nor late
It's strange, I swear, we've met at a sooner date.
I can't tell you when
Can't recall why
But I feel as if
this is not the first time I lay by your side.
I breathe as you speak
As you speak, my knees bend weak
Over and over, your being captures me
raptures me,
and leaves me.
Leaving me remembering a dream divine
A relived time
I swear we've met somewhere back through the vine
How strange it is
my dear friend.
Hello, hello,
in time we'll meet again.

True Life

Let it fall over you
Stop dead in your tracks
Let it flow through your veins
Let it echo through the thump of your heartbeat
Let it vibrate through the soles of your shoes
as you take that one last step
Do you feel it as you inhale through your nose
and exhale through your chest?
Do you know what it's called?
I call it redemption.
I call it clarity.
I call it truth.

I see it, feel it, breathe it.
It's seeing the eye of the storm,
but not the silver lining
It's feeling the wind circle you,
but not move you
It's tasting the rain drops
but not drenching yourself
It's what you want to know
but not what you want to hear
I call it life.
I call it death.
I call it truth.

I recognize it, forget it, embrace it
It's that place where time freezes
but you don't
It's that hand you cling to
but can't really feel
It's that love you let go
but still long for
I call it home.
I call it paradise.
I call it truth.
True Life.

Rant- Ignorance & Opinions

Okay so for the first time in a long time I'd like to rant. I'm not really angry, or in a particularly bad mood. Theres just something that been popping up quite frequently in my encounters with people, especially since it has been election time. I've decided that people ( for the most part ) are closed minded, naive, and disrespectful. People get so caught up in their own opinions that it appears to them that their opinion is the ONLY opinion. FOR EXAMPLE, (i apologize if youre reading this part and its about you but it is a perfect examply...) I changed my facebook status the other day to something about me supporting Obama, and a friend of mine wrote on my wall expressing his disgust with my choice. I followed up that post by saying something among the lines of everyones entitled to their own opinion I respect that you have your own opinion could you show me the same understanding... The response I got in return was something to the effect of I do not respect your opinion. WELL HELLLOOO I know you don't respect MY opinion, I don't expect you to, I expect you to understand the fact that I have a right to my own opinion and that it's common courtesy not to insult it. Debating your opinion and views with mine is one thing, I can handle that, maybe even enjoy it. I freaking love to argue. But going as far as insulting it... thats just downright disrespectful. Then after again expressing my support for Obama some girl, and I use the term girl because a woman would be a bit more adult about it, went to the extent of calling Obama a communist. Weak arguement, and insulting arguement. I don't call McCain a fascist when I see someone supporting him. I think that if you are educated enough to establish your own opinion and not just "go with the flow" even if your opinion is the retaliation of mine, then you are respectable and mature. But if you are so closed minded as to not respect the fact that I am educated enough to establish my own views, then you are just pompous in my book. This does not just go for the election, not just because the elections over either, it goes for everything anyone has opinions about. Ragging on someones views is cowardly. It just goes to show that you have nothing to back up your own views. This can go for religion, life lessons, topics such as abortion and gay rights. Anything like that. So next time someones voice angers you, try not to go off on them, maybe you can educate them, or likewise. Maybe you can just debate about it. But please don't be so ignorant as to think youre voice is the only voice.


Alright... that's all I needed to rant about. Thanks =]

The Good - Part Four

So, I'm laying on a park bench on my back, it's this little park that overlooks the city, quite lovely, and I'm watching the clouds, and the rest of the world pass me by, when I all of a sudden experience the single most amazing moment of my life. Have you ever felt an emotion so strongly that you feel it not only in your heart, but it sweeps over your entire body? Well when I usually feel this, its a moment of sadness, or anger, but today for the first time I felt pure joy. I felt frozen, just laying there in the cold autumn weather, brushing its way across my flushed face. I felt as if I had stopped and the whole world kept moving silently around me. As I layed there unable to move, breathe, or even glance around I took the time to really think. And in the five minutes I thought here is what I discovered; My life is everything I hoped for at this moment in time, I am blessed. As strange as this may sound, if I were to have died right at that moment, I would be happy with the state of mind I had passed in, and I would be happy with where my life had taken me. I am grateful for everything I have gone through in my life, because it has made me into the person I am right now. I am grateful for what my parents have taught me, and what I have learned from them. I am grateful for my grandfather saving me, and giving me what others could not. I am so proud to have such a great sister, who is more like a best friend to me. The friends that have come and gone in my life, shaped me into the person I am now, and taught me so much about what friendship really means. My best friends have showed me the true meaning of family, which to me isn't blood, its a feeling. My longest relationship taught me what not to, and to base all my relationships off, it made me so much stronger than I had ever thought I was. My mistakes have made me wiser and more intelligent than I had ever dreamed of giving myself credit for. And right now, I have found someone that filled that empty part inside of me. I found someone who understands me, and lifts me up when I cannot lift myself. I have found someone I have been dreaming of for as long as I can remember. As I thought about all of this, and analyzed it breifly this feeling swept over me, as if I had lost my breathe, and for a breif moment I smiled and cried all at once. I cried not because of these memories, but because I was overcome with joy. I felt as if every bad feeling I've ever had was sucked from my body and released from my mind. I felt as if everything bad I had ever experienced was worth the outcome, which is the person I am now. I cannot recall the last time I cried of joy, but I doubt it even compares to the way this felt. I've never experienced this feeling in my life before. So I collected myself, and got up to leave before this moment slipped from my mind. As I waltzed my way out of the park not looking back afraid to ruin the beauty of the moment, it dawned on me. Two of four my most memorable moments happened to me on that park bench, one being the moment I just described, and the second being a kiss with someone who makes me feel like life is worth living. So if you have a place like this, whether it be a park bench or just a little spot on the side of the road, just sit there or lay there. Watch the world pass you by, you may be surprised to find that everything is going to be okay. Because when I took the time to do this, I accomplished what I never thought I would... self actualization. I found who I am. And now I am free. I am blessed. Thank you to everyone who has made my life what it is.