The Good - Part Four

So, I'm laying on a park bench on my back, it's this little park that overlooks the city, quite lovely, and I'm watching the clouds, and the rest of the world pass me by, when I all of a sudden experience the single most amazing moment of my life. Have you ever felt an emotion so strongly that you feel it not only in your heart, but it sweeps over your entire body? Well when I usually feel this, its a moment of sadness, or anger, but today for the first time I felt pure joy. I felt frozen, just laying there in the cold autumn weather, brushing its way across my flushed face. I felt as if I had stopped and the whole world kept moving silently around me. As I layed there unable to move, breathe, or even glance around I took the time to really think. And in the five minutes I thought here is what I discovered; My life is everything I hoped for at this moment in time, I am blessed. As strange as this may sound, if I were to have died right at that moment, I would be happy with the state of mind I had passed in, and I would be happy with where my life had taken me. I am grateful for everything I have gone through in my life, because it has made me into the person I am right now. I am grateful for what my parents have taught me, and what I have learned from them. I am grateful for my grandfather saving me, and giving me what others could not. I am so proud to have such a great sister, who is more like a best friend to me. The friends that have come and gone in my life, shaped me into the person I am now, and taught me so much about what friendship really means. My best friends have showed me the true meaning of family, which to me isn't blood, its a feeling. My longest relationship taught me what not to, and to base all my relationships off, it made me so much stronger than I had ever thought I was. My mistakes have made me wiser and more intelligent than I had ever dreamed of giving myself credit for. And right now, I have found someone that filled that empty part inside of me. I found someone who understands me, and lifts me up when I cannot lift myself. I have found someone I have been dreaming of for as long as I can remember. As I thought about all of this, and analyzed it breifly this feeling swept over me, as if I had lost my breathe, and for a breif moment I smiled and cried all at once. I cried not because of these memories, but because I was overcome with joy. I felt as if every bad feeling I've ever had was sucked from my body and released from my mind. I felt as if everything bad I had ever experienced was worth the outcome, which is the person I am now. I cannot recall the last time I cried of joy, but I doubt it even compares to the way this felt. I've never experienced this feeling in my life before. So I collected myself, and got up to leave before this moment slipped from my mind. As I waltzed my way out of the park not looking back afraid to ruin the beauty of the moment, it dawned on me. Two of four my most memorable moments happened to me on that park bench, one being the moment I just described, and the second being a kiss with someone who makes me feel like life is worth living. So if you have a place like this, whether it be a park bench or just a little spot on the side of the road, just sit there or lay there. Watch the world pass you by, you may be surprised to find that everything is going to be okay. Because when I took the time to do this, I accomplished what I never thought I would... self actualization. I found who I am. And now I am free. I am blessed. Thank you to everyone who has made my life what it is.