One of the most interesting things I learned from reading this was probably a concept that was always in the back of my head but never had much meaning. Insecurities are beautiful. Some say that being insecure is "so unappealing" and "incredibly unattractive", while others say that cockiness is the true ugliness. And then you always have the few that debate that a nice inbetween is where the attraction really lies... Well after reading a certain excerpt from the bipgraphy I discovered that I believe insecurities can be quite beautiful...
Here is the excerpt that I am talking about
She was basically a very insecure person whose very insecurity made everyone fall in love with her. Isn't that the true definition of beauty, like a fawn caught drinking from a creek? He looks up and just is. He doesn't know what he looks like, how svelte his body is, or how graceful his movements are; he is just a fawn, like all the others.
Although part of that quote is debateable from my perspective, for the most part it makes so much sense to me. The only part I would slightly disagree on, is the part where Sean says "Isn't that the true definition of beauty" because as stated in one of my previous entries, beauty is defined differently by everyone. But at the same time I do agree because that is in my eyes a defintion of beauty. When Sean talks about how the fawn "just is" and sees himself as someone like all the others, it just sounds so beautiful. An image that comes into my mind is when the most beautiful person walks into the room, but walks in just like he's just another Joe, even though all eyes are on him, and theres an obvious glow about him, its as if he doesn't recognize it for even a split second. Something about that just sounds so beautiful. This is exactly how Audrey was, or at least thats the impression I get from everything I've read about her. It doesn't take a fashionista or beautician to point out that Audrey was flawless. And it doesn't take a psychologist to point out that she was also nearly flawless underneath. She was gorgeous, and a saint at heart, and she showed it everywhere she went without even wanting to. She did years of work for UNICEF, and disliked being recognized for the things she did for them. She hated being seen as the amazing person she was. She often sold herself short, and practiced modesty more so than a preist could ever in a lifetime preach. This is what made her beautiful, this is what made people "fall in love with her", her insecurity, and her constant modesty. People who are overconfident about themselves, and are borderline if not over the line cocky are unappealing. Not only that, but the way I see it the more that I think about it, is that cocky people don't need anyone. They recognize their beauty, and don't want or need anyone to appreciate the beauty in themselves that they already see. It's also been a recent reputation I've noticed that cocky people have little ability to love someone even close to as much as they love themselves. This seems to apply to the concept that Audrey is a romantic icon. She has this glow about her, that makes her seem like she has this unbreakable ability to love and care, and I'm beginning to believe that she had that ability to love everyone else because she neglects to love herself, and recognize the beauty within herself. This is why insecure people are so beautiful to me. They have this amazing ability to make you feel beautiful, and to make you feel loved, all because the dont waste their love on themselves. Insecure people are so compassionate that it draws people in. Had I not read these things about Audrey, I wouldn't have seen the beauty in insecurities that she made me see. It's amazing how the most luminiscent person in the history of our time thinks barely a thing about herself... Beautiful.
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