White Horses, Plastic Armor, and Sheilds.

As I sat there and watched a Sex and the City Episode, it dawned on me. I'm stubborn. Yep I know, you all knew this a long time ago, oh well. The topic of this episode was on the concept that all women just really want to be saved. But as I observed each character show their own ways of this concept weaving into their lives I realized that Carrie didn't want to be saved, she even slightly fought it. Carrie wanted to save herself, and not leave it up to a man to save her. And as I observed this it became evident that in that situation... I was Carrie. I fight being saved. Plenty of times there have been amazing, sweet, and caring guys that have been willing to sweep me off my feet and "save me" and almost everytime I've either completely disregarded them or turned them down. I've had this idea in my head that I don't need to be saved, and that I'm okay with being alone... Well being alone isn't so bad. But I can't lie, I'm not okay with being alone the way I've been fighting to stay for so long. At the end of the episode, Carrie concludes her weekly "Sex & The City" Column by saying that maybe we all do need to be saved. Maybe it's not so bad to let someone in... I've been so stubborn, and so busy being burned from my last relationship, and so busy being scared to let someone save me... that I didn't realize how much it would be okay, and maybe even good to let someone ride in on their white horse and save me. I guess it wouldnt make me any less strong. I guess it wouldn't mean I'd be giving up my independence. It would just mean that I wouldn't be alone. So instead of pushing all these knights in shining armor away, I've for once decided to give one a chance. But obviously with sheild in hand as usual ;] Because I think we all know, I've learned some things from my past battles...

So be strong, but be saved. Be loved, but be gaurded. Be wise, but be carefree. Because in the end, if you fall off the horse, and the knights armor turns out to be plastic, all it really means is that youre one step closer to the happy ending. One step closer to being saved, for real this time.